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Kim
Artist | Student | Digital Art
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I have to say, that without depression or pain. I would not have art, and well would therefore have nothing to define myself by.-5/19/12
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"The beauty of life is that it is entirely unpredictable, a complete wonder, and absolutely captivating when things come together. Life isn't supposed to be perfect, and it isn't going to be, but if you can survive the downfalls then the little miracles in life become that much more amazing." - 4/23/12
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I'm not allowed to be happy, i don't let it happen. Because then what would i strive for?
This is the only place i am who i am, don't like me, then gtfo and find someone else's page to look at.
My opinion has never mattered to anyone, and i dont expect it to matter to you, so if you disagree, get over it.
I don't judge anyone for being who they are, i may not accept what you believe in or quite understand why you do what you do, but that doesn't give me the right to tell you of my disapproval, and it doesn't give you the right to disapprove of me.
No i'm not perfect, and neither are you.
No, my stuff may not always hold a certain standard, but i draw what i feel, take pictures of emotion and express every detail of depression in words, i'm not going to do anything else.
Respect me and i'll respect you.
No, i don't expect you to understand. No one does, it's okay.
You never know what is coming, and there is always some bleak hope for light in the future.
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No matter how much i regret whats happened, i can't change it. No matter how much pain those chooses make me feel. There is no way to rewind. Fight through. Beat it down. Stop daydreaming and move on.
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~I'll brush aside the dim, make room for the bright.
I'll be an editor, no, a curator of light.
I'll let my better angels always set me right,
Until i even out the score.
Until i even out the score.~

In the end none of what i feel right now will matter. I just want to let it go, cry it away, because i know if i don't, if i hold it in, i'll be stuck forever in a deep deep hole. I dont really let myself feel much, ever, if i feel things it makes life unbearable, but this, i have to feel, because if i don't it'll creep right back up later, and well, i was pretty close to breaking down anyway, this just pushed me over the edge, made me cry. Of all things. I never cry, i need to more, but i never do, because i never feel. Crying, gives me a migrane, stomach ache, and so much tiredness.


I dont want to regret, i dont, i hate it, but i can't help it. Fuck. Everything right now, im just gonna disappear from every internet related site for a while, retreat away from people, cause all they do is hurt me. Im done right now. Good bye deviantart, at least for now. Good bye facebook, i just logged out, and phone im turning you off. I dont want to talk to anyone right now. I dont need anything. I just need to feel, and think, and hopefully that will get me through.

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~XCali-CatX 21 hours ago  Student Digital Artist
No problem!

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~Love what gives love
And hope for a relief from the loss that comes.~
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"Wouldn't it be the perfect crime, if i stole your heart & you stole mine."- Molly Brooks
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~aniemchic45 21 hours ago  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks for the fav :meow:

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I'm strange as a hot summer day in the middle of winter :P
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~XCali-CatX 22 hours ago  Student Digital Artist
No problem!

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~Love what gives love
And hope for a relief from the loss that comes.~
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"Wouldn't it be the perfect crime, if i stole your heart & you stole mine."- Molly Brooks
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~jdrockergoth 1 day ago  New member Hobbyist Artist
thnks 4 ma llama

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All I have to say is this... why not?
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~cutebabykitty May 19, 2012  Hobbyist Artist
thanx 4 da llama (:

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ϟƘƦƖןןΣ✘,BOTDF, AND DEADMAU5...admit it... u kno there awesome =w=
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